Transformation!

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak." - Isaiah 40:29

Five years ago, I was a completely different person than what I am now (or so I'd like to believe). I came to DVC and had so many doubts and worries about everything. I was still a new believer and was scared to do anything "Christian-like." During caregroup, I was asked to pray. My reaction was like:

I was scared.. I didn't want to! Cause I don't know how to pray. Let alone do it in public! What if people laugh at me cause I say the wrong thing? Plus, other people prayed in such a cool way, I was still such a noob. I didn't want to embarrass myself and therefore kept rejecting whenever I was asked to pray. I was becoming so creative with coming up with excuses. Eventually I started to practice together with James, and soon did my first ever public prayer! I did it!

One would think the journey ends there, but no, God gave me more and more challenging tasks that were outside my comfort zone. Every single time, I had a battle with God as I tried to find a way out of the duty. Every single time, I almost bailed out. But when I approached the leaders to tell them I didn't want to do it, my mouth would suddenly freeze and I was unable to utter "I don't want to."

In the end, whatever God called me to do, I did them.. Quite reluctantly at first. But now that I have been doing it, it's actually fun, plus it helps me to know God even better. Even though I don't have the talent or skills to do them (like how did I end up being a worship leader with my off tune singing?) God somehow equipped - He gave me strength even when I was incapable to do it.

"Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much" - Luke 16:10

If you don't refuse God, you will witness how He will continue to make you grow. The me form 5 years ago would've never thought I would EVER be in the phase I am at now. Who would've thought the girl who was so scared to pray in caregroup would end up praying in front of the church? Then again, it's not because of me, but it's because of God. He uses the weak people to make them into His great vessel. God transforms us from the inside out to go to the next level. Amazing, really!